Cam is oblivious to our Metallica imitation at rehearsal
I love these girls, they’re just enjoying music and life!
Just like almost all others, I question my future. I question what it will bring, and if it will be worth the sacrifices I will make in order get where I want to be. Perhaps I will not fine happiness until I achieve what I want in life. I wonder if I will always make trouble for myself. Living in a world where I am 97% sober, which is a huge change for me sadly, has definitely changed my prospective. I have SO MANY QUESTIONS now. I used to self medicate to a grotesque degree and these questions would just never come up, of course. I was too busy being drunk, or whatever else. Now, these questions irk me. They force me to look at me and my path, and those I am sharing it with, and think about where I want to go.
All of these words are not surprising of course, I just had to see them out in front of me. To make sure they are real.
I am undergoing yet another great transition and venture in my life. I think about my future and what my past took with it. What will the future bring? I question that is asked frequently, but can never be answered with certainty. We make plans and try to execute them, but sometimes life has another plan entirely. No matter how hard we fight or withhold, the river of life will pull us along with it’s current and there isn’t much we can do but move with it. Fighting against the current is a mistake and will most likely result in drowning. I suppose this brings up the question of fate and destiny? I am not convinced that there is such thing, but I do not neglect the possibility that there it does in fact exist. Yet another frequently asked question. There are always so many things to ponder and question, I am not amazed when people lose themselves in their own heads. Or why people go insane. It’s amazing really.
You taught me how good Gouda cheese is! Especially Gouda, and for that I am grateful.